Good question that deserves an answer, that is
(Yoda sentence translator link below). Well, I've been gone a lot because I'm finally getting my life on track. I know I keep saying that, but I'm for real.Backstory
For those of you who don't know, I extended my graduation a year to do an internship program at school. I have everything I need to graduate, but I wanted to get "job experience". The program allowed me to be sent to different "job sites" and work there with a job coach monitoring/acting as my buffer so I don't go to my supervisor a lot. I got 2 different job sites every week for a semester. I was given a department store where I was in Homeware on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, then a fl
p as a floral assistant on Tuesdays and Thursdays.
Well, 7-10 weeks later after fighting with a job coach, and social skill issues, I got fired from the department store
. There were a ton of reasons why, but one of them was that I didn't have good social skills. I was also on probation at the flower shop which was the job site I LOVED to work at.
Thing is, I had realized 6 weeks in that I wanted to quit. I was drained all the time emotionally, mentally, and physically. I was sleeping 14 hours on the weekends because I would reboot then.
Now, I started to realize I wasn't a good fit when we did a project about future plans. I had to do a poster where 1 half was my dream job, and the other was what I was qualified for. As I established in October, my dream job is being an SFX Makeup Artist in Independent Film. I also am qualified at the moment to be a comic book artist. So I did the research, put the poster together, and was really confident that I would get a good grade. I volunteered to present, and everything went well... until my teacher spoke.
My teacher, who was one of two coordinators in the program, told me that she was going to deduct points due to the job I thought I was qualified for. Here's why:*Please excuse this intermission due to a fangirl freakout!!!! CRANBERSHER RESPONDED TO MY COMMENT IN HIS RECENT RYC VIDEO!!!!!*
- It was unrealistic
- Close to the pay of the SFX makeup artist job
- Couldn't get hired locally by a company
- Freelancing is unrealistic (redundant, I know)
So, she was going to knock off a few points because of those reasons. Thing is, it's not a pipe dream for me. My mom has freelanced in different mediums most of her adult life. She's done directing, writing, script supervising, Makeup, hair, and costume design for indie film (Like I aspire to do), acting, freelance writing, and is now head of a PR firm for a multi-million dollar marketing company.
Take that coordinator!
Then the thing that made me decide to quit was the Monday after. Long story short, a former friend of mine threw me over for a guy I didn't approve of, and started saying insults to my face. After going to a job site and coming back, I finally starting yelling at her and pointed out her flaws in the middle of class. Yes, not so smart on my part, but have you ever heard of tough love?
When I got home, my mom was on a business call, so I just shut the front door, and slid down to the floor. I started crying, then tried to channel that energy to levitate a glove in front of me like Karie (did I spell that right?) whilst I waited for my mom to finish her call. About 10 minutes later, we started talking, and I told her I was done with the program. Luckily, I had a therapy appointment coming up 10 minutes later, and I discussed everything with my therapist and my mom for 2 hours. My mom was on the fence, along with my therapist, but I knew what I wanted.
I then called my coordinator (the nice one, not the mean one), and told her I wanted to quit. We had a meeting with a bunch of people, and everybody but my coordinator got that I was done/not a good fit for the program. My mom basically said what I said 3 paragraphs ago about her freelancing, but said it right to the mean coordinator's face. Not rudely, but very civil.
Long story short, today I had my final meeting, and I am graduated from high school!!!!! Backstory Over
So yeeeeaaaahhhhhh.... that's basically why I've been gone. What am I going to do? I'll be using my graphic art, coding skills, and artistic abilities in the freelancing world, and get paid for it. In doing so, I'll save up for LA and move there to go to Tom Savini's SFX school. I'll still be doing YouTube and all this on dA, but I'll also be in and out due to work. So don't be worried!!
I also will be taking requests FOR REAL so I can build up my skills. Send me a note with what you want, and I'll do my best